Some of this may repeat or over lap what other adoptees have written or expressed about being adopted. That is the great thing about communicating with other adoptees, you finally know your truths are similar to others. There is a lot of comfort in that especially after being so alone in the world with all the issues of being adopted that are never spoken of, and usually dismissed as unimportant instead. I enjoy hearing from other adoptees who inspire me with their voices of truth and encourage me to voice mine.
Pondering your navel in ways nonadopted people would never think about, and where that connection that once was is now. Birthdays that are spent wondering if your mother is remembering you, and if she is in what way, good, bad, or indifferent? Being adopted means being puzzled with the reasons parents could give you away, and walk away, and leave with so many unanswered questions.